Happy Holidays.

Oh lookie, it has been a month since my last entry here. Oh how I've ignored you dear rocketsplat!

Let's kick it off with HAPPY HOLIDAYS! Hope you are enjoying your well-deserved vacation with your family.

We try and we try, but we fail.

Failure isn't an option they say.

But in these past few months, I've experienced failure after failure. EPIC FAIL as the interwebs coined it. No, I didn't fail any subjects, in fact I'm doing average in uni and it's expected to stay that way. Life, that's where I generally fail. Relationships, another downer. Social life, oh, I don't have that.

It's not fun anymore. I don't know if it's the inferiority complex or life in general. And no, I am not going to cut or kill myself.

I am yet into another dysfunctional relationship. I am with the most amazing person there ever is and yet I fail to see what that person does for me. I am so grateful that Bam loved me the way I am despite me looking like a complete mess; picked me up the time my past threw me away and shattered me into tiny pieces. But the thing is, I haven't forgotten about my past yet. It's heartbreaking that I am hurting somebody else while I wallow in pain.

I'd like to run away, and take long bus trips to nowhere and fade into oblivion. Is that too much to ask?

Other Things

Other things.

Herein will lay the things that interests the captain.

Possible book list of 2010.

Possible photo sets.

Possibilities.

Do you remember, dancing in September?

I will never make ridiculous plans ever again. See, I get disappointed whenever I'm not able to comply with my life plans. I'll try to be spontaneous when the need "to-be" arises.

Today had one of the most scorching hot afternoons, I woke up from my siesta with beads of sweat dripping down my chest and forehead. It might sound like I look like a pornstar, but trust me it's far from that. I couldn't use the lone AC unit in the house because my mom was sleeping in that room. I wanted to chill, she wanted to sleep.

95 days before Christmas. That's the 5th or 6th time I used that line today. It's a new photo-project, more in the lines of Project 365 (which I attempted to do, but failed miserably). It's also a "renewing myself" plan. I realized I was getting unhealthy in all human aspects, so I had to change.

Yay! I didn't eat rice today, but I did eat motherloads of carbs. From baked potato topped with corned beef, bacon bits and cheese to cheetos and a burger. Um excuse me miss, are you on a diet?