Of Packages and Today's Events

Today is a pretty wicked day, thanks to these two wonderful packages I got from the courier. I know these are the type of things that should go into Ang Kartero (which, by the way, I haven't updated for a while). I still had half of my allowance in my account and thought, what the hell, I'll treat myself for enduring 6 months of the professional world. First one is from Fikafikafika which is owned by the lovely Liarnie and the latter is the order I got from Human Heart Nature.

The packaging is amazing. Never have I opened such a wondrous parcel (no offense to my mailpals, but this one tops it all). I want to re-seal the whole thing and open it up again just to feel that burst of something. I got the July-August issue of Frankie magazine from the shop, as well as a subway map postcard set. Usually with online sellers nowadays, it's all straight-up business talk, but it was such a joy talking to Liarnie. She's a fellow snail mail enthusiast and we exchanged a few e-mails about our frustrations about our local postcards. If only more people still supported the snail mail business...

Here is Celine enjoying her The Little Prince notebook that was included as a freebie. I mentioned to Liarnie that my little cousin wanted one of those Le Petit Prince set of notebooks; I asked her if she could inform me when she has stocks of them again. But now, see, she gave her one as a freebie!

You could go to Fikafikafika.com and see what adorable things Liarnie has for you. Also, as far as I know, she's one of the few people (or the only one, I think) who sells Frankie locally. So if you're a fan of the Aussie  magazine, check her shop out.

And now, on to today's edition of "What Have You Done Today?"

Dark Place

It might be the stress I've been trying to avoid. I just know it would be one of these days where I have to face the problem.

I'm really worrying about my future. When you're being shoved into doing something that might be monumental for your life, you should be thankful. But the word "shoved" in this context roughly means you're being "forced" into an opportunity that they think might be good for your future. I'm thankful that they're helping me, but forcing me into something won't help me grow.

I don't even know if this intervention by my relatives will result into something positive and beneficial. Too late for regrets now eh.

I know I'm not hopeless, but I feel like it.

The Battle With Indecision

A sole word has been playing around my mind and has been bothering me to some extent. I couldn't exactly put to words how much it has been affecting me the second I left the bomb-shelter that is college. Crisis. Quarter-life Crisis to be exact. Wikipedia defined it as:

The quarterlife crisis is a term applied to the period of life immediately following the major changes of adolescence, usually ranging from the early twenties to the early thirties.

The on-going battle with indecision is making me exhausted. It would be comforting to at least know what I really want in life. What I really want to be. What I see my future as. All I see now is the blurry concoction of hopes, dreams and what I am supposed to be. Thinking of this is too much, yet so crucial to my future.

I think it's a bad thing that I still doubt myself as that person capable of proving to herself that this is where she is supposed to be. I keep telling myself that I am taking the right path. Talking to the right people. Taking the right measures. If I am doing things right, why do I feel like I don't want this?

The Mandatory Where The Hell Have You Been Post (A Month in The Making)

Hi.

This is not the real The Mandatory Where The Hell Have You Been Post (A Month in The Making) entry. This is me filling out the sad space that has been gathering dust in this side of cyberspace.

I have been pre-occupied with what grown-ups do when they finish college and pass their required board exam. Bum around for a few months, then surprise myself by trying to take on adult responsibilities. Like how my The Sims 2 character, Eon, magically turns into an adult in just 2 weeks.

It's been hell today. I don't know if what happened today is really hell or I just made myself believe it is. There's a first for everything, today is another milestone in my adult life.

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Blog wise, I've been planning on making a simpler layout with big spaces to fill with photos. More pretty pictures (or the lack thereof), less mumbo-jumbo. I've been writing and thinking about Arms at Ready everywhere. The thought of making something out of it is exhilarating.